I see myself standing out in an open field.  The gentle breeze is blowing in my face and as I am talking with someone, I notice pollen in the air.  It is not annoying or anything; it is just that it was noticeable; and I think I said something about it to the One who was with me.   After that, the wind picked up and the air was heavy laden with all kinds of pollen and seeds.  It reminded me of what it would look like if there was wheat being threshed nearby.  It was difficult to talk now, because of the thickness of it. As I would open my mouth it would be filled with the seed that was born on the wind… in the Spirit.  Soon my shoulders were covered with it.  I saw myself facing the wind, becoming coated in the golden pollen. 

This is a picture of the the spirit of God; He says that He will put His Words on our lips.  If we will open our mouths in obedience to Him, He is faithful to fill it.  

Forsaking all… Running to Him! 

As I was listening to the radio and getting ready for the day, I suddenly was reminded of the parable of the rich young ruler who came to Jesus and asked, “what must I do to inherit eternal life?”  Jesus told him first to follow the commandments… “Teacher,” the man declared, “all these I have kept since I was a boy.”  “One thing you lack” Jesus said, “Go and sell everything you have and give to the poor and you will have treasure in heaven.  Then, come and follow me.” The man’s face fell.  He went away sad because he had great wealth.  Then Jesus said it is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter the Kingdom of God.  His disciples marveled at that and wondered, how then can anyone be saved?  Then Jesus said, “with man, this is impossible, but not with God; all things are possible with God. “—Matthew 19:17-27 (KJV)

The Lord reminded me of our time together when I went to bed a few days earlier.  As soon as I got in bed, I was in His midst. There is so much I do not remember, except that at some point, it was like I could see all the gifts and treasures that He stored up for me, and those He had already given to me.  

I seemed to be on a road, and I looked at the treasure and then at Him;  and leaving everything on the road, I ran into His arms!  I could not bear to be apart from Him!  What emptiness I felt, having the most powerful and wondrous of His giftings, and to not be near Him.  I knew that I would rather be without anything; give me nothing and take all things from me…Just let me be with YOU Lord!  

I was crying and sobbing and in great torment at the very thought of an instant  of not being in the same room with Him.  

Now, as I thought of “The rich young ruler,” I realized that there is a parallel with him that many Christians share.  As the Lord blesses His daughters and son’s with an abundance of His riches and gifts…how many of us are so caught up in His many treasures, delighting in the rich and abundant giftings of His Spirit, and reveling in using them in service TO Him, that we do not realize that we have stopped outside; and He is on the other side of the door?  We stopped following Him when the abundance of gifts and treasures and blessings became too great to leave. We did not realize that He was not in the gifts.  He had entered into the secret chambers and we were so caught up in the evidence of His blessing that we did not realize His intimacy had departed… and He calls us to come into Him.

How many will risk leaving all the treasure behind to follow Him into the Holy of Holies… the very heart of God, desiring only to be near Him?  These are they who ask nothing but to look at Him.  They do not even ask to feel Him or to hear Him, but just to know He is there, is more than enough.

[Originally composed: January 20th 2003]