But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run and not be weary and they shall walk and not faint.

Isaiah 40:31

I woke up very early this morning. My sleep was not restful because the “enemy” of worry and fear kept trying to press into my thoughts and go through my mind. Fear is a great enemy at this time and it would serve us well to remember that is what it is. Anxiety. Anxiety about this COVID thing: Plague, earthquakes in the political arena of diverse countries. Political unrest, division as I have never seen before. Threats of famine. Threats to the earth. Threats that this country will not endure much longer… the weight of corruption is breath- taking and no one seems to know what truth is anymore. We seem to have come to a place in our history spoken of by the Prophet Isaiah; “Their feet run to evil, and they make haste to shed innocent blood: their thoughts are thoughts of iniquity; wasting and destruction are in their paths. The way of peace they know not; and there is no judgement in their goings: they have made them crooked paths: whosoever goeth therein shall not know peace. (Isa 59: 7,8)… In transgressing and lying against the LORD, and departing away from our God, speaking oppression and revolt, conceiving and uttering from the heart words of falsehood. And judgement is turned away backward, and justice standeth afar off: for truth is fallen in the street, and equity cannot enter.” (Isa 59:13,14 KJV)

But GOD! I love those words. While the enemy was trying to disturb my sleep and my peace, the Lord gave me a song in the night that repeated over and over… countering every lie. Still, I got up and came downstairs seeking peace and answers. My Lord is so good!! He knows me! He indeed goes before me! As David sang of His constant presence in his 139th Psalm, my Lord was ready to encourage and speak wisdom to my thirsty soul. I cannot explain how He does this, I just know He does. I seemed to be led to open a journal entry from November 11 of 2008, and this is what was waiting for me. This, is the provision my faithful Heavenly Father laid up almost 13 years ago for me for this very morning. I hope and pray it is provision for your journey as well!

All I know is I can be sure that when I don’t even know what my questions or needs are; He does. He meets the deepest needs of our soul. He is so ready to pour out comfort and wisdom and understanding to all who will seek Him and come and sit before Him. Just abide in Him. Abide in His Presence!

In my journal that day, I was reading the news and feeling worry and anxiety for the things going on in the world even then.
As I was reading, I could not help but utter a prayer to the Lord of the harvest for a harvest of food for the farmers and the poor of the world. I began to pray in the spirit, and then confessed to Father that it is so difficult to not pray what I want… It is difficult to not pray my will that seems to be a good thing, but that is not necessarily what the Will of the Lord is. I then stopped and had to acknowledge that His Will must be done, not our own: Not mine! For His Kingdom must come!  His Will must be accomplished… it must be His Will that I pray according to; learning to push my own aside… waiting on His Will to be made known.  

Beginning to pray, I wrote “To wait upon You is an act of Faith and trust.  To wait while our own window of opportunity to act passes away, till we are left with no choice but to cry out all the more fervently for Your Will, to be done.  It is when we wait, that we are rewarded. When we sit and watch the time pass where we could have acted according to our own flesh, according to our will and knowledge, we are exercising our faith.  You alone are our Deliverer!  Your coming is with shaking the foundations of the earth. The Kingdoms of this world WILL become the Kingdom of our God and of His Christ!  That can only happen when the former has passed away: been destroyed and shattered….” How painful, and yet Father, I know that You will act with kindness and mercy towards Your own.  

You will care even more tenderly for Your sheep that are in Your pasture.  You will lead us to still waters… to a place of peace and security within Your walls, hidden from the enemy and safe.  You will feed us even while the nations around us are searching for food, if we will wait on You!  If we will look to You with expectation in our hearts and not fear!   If we will trust and put our hands, our lives, and our will into Your hands.  But, will we trust You to care for us?  Only by Grace can we enter, and by Your Grace we can then stand!”

Now the Spirit of the Lord spoke into my distraught spirit…

“This is not a physical thing, it is a spiritual exercise.  
It is an exercise because it is not passive.  
It is an aggressive faith that moves the mountains of rebellion in the hearts and minds of men; Of the sons of men.  
As the Lord said, “the Kingdom of God is now coming and violent men shall take it by force…”
–It shall be taken hold of by the force of faith in the Conquerer!  

Wait on your knees!
Wait till the mockers have worn themselves out ridiculing you for your foolishness. 
Wait till all opportunity to act by your own flesh has long passed.  
When the way has been blocked by the enemy and all exits of escape are sealed; 
When hope in yourself has completely been vanquished.
 When all hope seems to have passed:
Look up!!  ~For your Conquerer comes for you, to deliver you! 
-To show those that mocked that they are fools who trusted only in their weakness!

Then they will also know that there is a God who listens to the cries of Faith of His children… Who rescues His sheep…Who delights in honoring His people before their enemies. 
Their enemies are His! 
They seek to elevate themselves!  
The Children of the Lord, His servants, seek His Glory and it shall be shown! 
They shall not wait in vain! 

But waiting till the very last is the difficult part.
The Lord will not share His victory with the flesh.
He will not allow any to say that “he helped,” or, that” it was by his wisdom or efforts that salvation came.”  
It, (Victory) belongs only to the Lord!

The time between the last hope of the flesh and the “Coming of the Lord” is the most deadly to Faith… 
It is also the most powerful time for Faith!  

When the children of Israel were boxed in with the waters on one side and the army of Pharaoh on the other…remember it was only because the pillar of fire of the Lord lifted that the army of Pharaoh could threaten the people.   

Only when all seemed lost, did the waters part to allow My children to pass safely on dry ground. 
This, I showed to the mighty army of Pharaoh so that they all might see and witness My Power and My Grace to My People!  
I exulted My Children in the presence of their enemies.  
I humbled the pride and might of Pharaoh in the sight of My Children.  

It is My will that the servants of God behold their deliverance, and the enemies of God behold My Grace and might to deliver My children from harm, and to exercise judgment on their enemies.  
Wait till the end. 
Do not give up!  
It is AFTER all seems lost that your Faith will be rewarded. 
I will come.  I will not leave you or forsake you.
Know that I am already there… 

I am waiting till the last second to deliver you!
My Will must be accomplished.  

Do not fear… for I Am with those who wait upon Me!”  

I know I am so satisfied with His assurance. This explains what I needed to allow to permeate into my understanding, and walk according to this truth. As the LORD’s Will is manifested upon the earth, we must hold fast with our eyes fixed upon Him, knowing His eyes are fixed upon us! He is faithful! Forever He is Faithful and Good!

Amen!